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Psychedelic Notes 11/18/21

Really what I want to do is – well one thing I want to do is integrate my mystical psilocybin experiences – to put them in words – & to act on what I learned from those experiences – even when & if people disagree. I can’t live for the opinion of people any more. I mean I can but I don’t want to. I can’t live well like that. 

I need to live my truth. 

& what I have experienced during multiple of my psilocybin experiences were completely unique.

I think it will be better if I stop feeling the need to explain myself – especially to people who are bent on disagreeing with me.

 & that I need to just live it – which I’ve done at times in my life, but I’d like to live what I’ve learned more & more – & one of the main things I experienced during those moments was unconditional love – & that no matter who you are & what you’ve done, you are loved no matter what – who you really are, behind your ego, there is unconditional love. I know people disagree with this, but this is what I experienced & it’s true for me.

& I experienced the Tao – beyond words bliss. 

& some of my favorite experiences deep into shroom trips have been stargazing with friends – they were tripping too. 3.5 grams on trips like this when I was in college & the years after college.

Stargazing though, truly beautiful at the end of a mushroom trip – or in the middle of one too. Shooting stars – this is one of the most magical experiences with or without shrooms. But on shrooms it’s magnified X a lot.

& just thinking about life – contemplating it all – not in a rush to figure anything out, but in a way that genuinely wonders & asks All the questions.

What is life?

Why is life? 

Why does anything exist at all?

Why has it happened like this?

Where are we in the Universe? — or better yet realizing that it doesn’t matter where we are in the Universe, just that we are here now – on this big fucking rock! 

With a hot lava core & all sorts of layers within.

Floating in space!!

That’s fucking crazy.

But people act like it’s no big deal.

It’s a huge fucking deal.

Contemplating the vastness of the Universe while laying down at night looking at the stars with friends.

Seeing the edge of our Milky Way Galaxy & thinking about how there are millions & billions of other galaxies!!!! (the normal human mind can’t comprehend billions of galaxies because it’s so vast & because most people are completely stuck in this planet & don’t care to contemplate the Universe – & that’s okay too, but it’s not for me. I like the out of this world philosophy talk & experiences. & there’s always more to learn & experience. Always. No one person can know it all – ever. I will never claim to know it all because that’s not possible for anyone. 

I will claim my experiences though. 

& some people doubt that aliens exist.

That’s a joke.

Of course they do.

I like philosophizing life. 

It’s one of my favorite things to do.

& I’ve been philosophizing & contemplating life since I was a child. 

It’s been a natural passion & I’m thankful for it.

I want others to experience the mystical too. 

^especially since another realization I had on shrooms was that we are literally One. Our egos make us feel separate so our egos must be a lie. But there also must be something good that can come from our egos since they are very much existent in people. The realization that I am you and you are me. In the literal sense. This is no metaphor or anything like that. This is literal. We are each other. It’s just that our egos have been so cemented to believe otherwise – to believe that we are words & images & whatever else the ego holds on to – that all these things define us, but none of them do – they don’t define our real selves, which is our soul selves beyond the ego. I experienced empathy in this place like nothing I’ve ever experienced before & it was complete bliss. Unconditional love. It was the realization of my Soul self. It was an ego death. & it was beyond words beautiful.

Deep empathy. 

& so when I think about or write about politics – I know that’s my ego talking. Politics is the biggest ego game on this planet, & I just don’t have time for that – it takes away from my happiness so the only thing I can do is leave it to them & trust them – I mean, they are in their positions for a reason. 

But after I experienced unconditional love on my shrooms trips I realized that I can’t hate anyone & that I should never try to change anyone. Because we are all in harmony with the Tao, even when we think we or others aren’t – we still are.

So less talk. More living this. 

Just love. 

Really.

& love is an action – & it can be practiced. 

& it’s something I know I would like to practice more. Because in that place of love is bliss. & it’s completely selfless. So much easier said than done because as humans we have been taught to be inherently selfish — so I think we can possibly change human nature — that “human nature” is possibly a concept we’ve created as a species & it can be changed for the better. 

& yes, I’d like to live well – & idk if that’s my ego or soul talking. idk, but it’s like I still want to be financially free & all that. I still want to eat good foods & enjoy life to the fullest, & that’s okay too. There’s nothing wrong with that at all. 

But I also think that real happiness is beyond all of that – that there are some people who are rich & love it & themselves, but that also there are people who are rich and hate their lives — tell that to a poor person..no don’t do that actually. — the pain anyone in is valid. But yea. More living it. Less talk.

^^other peoples’ lives are not mine to judge — no matter what. Period. 

Really, just love.

Really, just love.

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Psychedelic State of Mind

“My city and state are Rome-as Antoninus. But as a human being? The world. So for me, ‘good’ can only mean what’s good for both communities.
-Marcus Aurelius

^This quote from the good Roman Emperor Marcus Aurelius encompasses what it means to have a psychedelic state of mind.

Albert Einstein said the same thing:

“I am by heritage a Jew, by citizenship a Swiss, and by makeup a human being, and only a human being, without any special attachment to any state or national entity whatsoever.”

Same with the philosopher Seneca:

“I know that my country is the world and that the gods are guardians, those judges of my deeds and words above and beyond me.”

The Psychedelic State of Mind is All-Inclusive. Literally. It has All in mind because it recognizes the humanity within us All.

That we all share many more similarities than differences.

That none of us had any choice whatsoever in where or how we were born.

None of us chose what skin color, gender, height, weight, or any other physical characteristics, but lots of people live life like they made that choice.

They didn’t. 

No one did.

We are all human, and our foundations of bones are all the same.

An extreme example comes from the philosopher Diogenes when asked by Alexander the Great what he was doing. Diogenes responded with: 

“I am searching for the bones of your father but cannot distinguish them from those of a slave.”

This remark at first might seem an insult, but it is far from insulting. Diogenes wasn’t being rude – he was pointing toward the truth of the matter. He wasn’t just telling Alexander the Great what Alexander the Great wanted to hear (as probably everyone else at the time did that) 

Diogenes served as a reminder of Memento Mori — that no matter what position we hold currently, it won’t last.

That physical life is fleeting.

& that our real origin is beyond physical planes of existence.

That our true origin lives in invisible dimensions of spirit & soul, where we are all connected.

This is how the Roman Emperor Marcus Aurelius viewed life – as a citizen of the world, not as a separate individual.

This is how Albert Einstein perceived his life – as a citizen of this world, not as a separate individual.

These philosophers, geniuses, and emperors were able to perceive life from a higher perspective & see the larger picture, & it made a big difference.

This is what is means to have a Psychedelic State of Mind.

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Psychedelic Character

“Most people say that it is the intellect which makes a great scientist. They are wrong: it is character.”
– Albert Einstein

It really is.

Can we agree that character is an extremely important aspect in a person?

Yes we can.

& can we agree that character is in extreme lack, especially within the leaders of this world?

^if you disagree, please comment your response. 

More on this: 

They aren’t thinking with their own minds — they are just as blind as the masses. It’s really the blind leading the blind, and it’s just ridiculous…& it’s not like just one person will find the answers — it will be a group of people with real, genuine character – who are able to actually listen to each other without ego – for actually better foundations…it won’t be about people trying to push their own selfish agendas onto everyone else(which is what politics seems to be…) , it will be about actually listening.

“Be more concerned with your character than your reputation, because your character is what you really are, while your reputation is merely what others think you are.” 
– John Wooden

Too many people care more about what other people think of them than what they think of themselves. They care more about their reputation than their character, and that’s just more politics. It’s not thinking for yourself. It’s thinking about what other people might think…and the funny thing is, PEOPLE DON’T THINK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

They just react, almost always blindly. Almost always selfishly. Almost always in fear.

If I cared about my reputation, I wouldn’t be the person I am.

I want people to like me, but if they don’t, I really don’t give a fuck. Some of my family doesn’t even like me…so ya know, it is what it is. I live for something greater than “I” 

Greater than ego.

Greater than reputation.

And part of this perception I think comes from my experiences with psilocybin mushrooms.

I’ve always been my own person but psilocybin has shown me & given me the experience of the truth in thinking for myself — which ultimately cultivates an attitude of thinking for everyone, because it carries everyone in mind & wants the best for everyone.

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Psychedelic Evolution

“Even as the nineteenth century had to come to grips with the notion of human descent from apes, we must now come to terms with the fact that those apes were stoned apes.”
-Terence McKenna

Scientists can’t confirm with 100% accuracy that humans are a product of evolution.

But that is what many of them think, and it’s possible

For me, I am not claiming to know. I entertain multiple ideas, like Aristotle.

It’s possible that aliens created us, that we are a product of aliens. But yea, evolution is possible too. & there are more than just two possibilities. There are many.

Anyway, in relation to the title of this post & Terence’s quote, the evolution of humanity may have come from animals who stumbled upon plants that got them high. Really really high. Like psilocybin mushrooms. 

And if we didn’t come from animals, although we as humans are animals – we share a very similar biology to all animals – organs, hair, skin, hands, feet, etc. humans are animals. Get over it.

Anyway, even if we didn’t evolve from apes, we are now at a point where we can observe evolution happening within us, humanity, as we live right now — & that this evolution, at least part of it, is coming from the use of psilocybin mushrooms & marijuana. Other psychedelics too.

What are your thoughts on the stoned ape theory?

& what are your thoughts about aliens?

Comment, and stay cool, friends

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Notes During Last Night’s Psilocybin Trip

(Began around 5 something PM – probably more towards 6)

It’s moments like this, here & now, where I see everything — well, I want to say “everything”, but it’s more like 

( I take a deep breath) it’s an understanding. & to anyone who doesn’t believe, that’s okay. 

It’s real tho. 

This is real. 

I am real. 

There’s nothing fake about this. I feel like I shouldn’t have to tell people this – that they should know it’s real – that they can feel it. But maybe not everyone can, yet… all I have right now is a big smile…a big smile for myself & for everyone, for life, for nature, for people, for everything. Wow, & sometimes I cry because it’s so vast… okay, so yes – integration is extremely important,, where can people begin?

—begin by Relaxing (there are multiple ways to relax — meditation, **laying down is actually wonderful** just lay down. & breathe. 

& love— like the Greeks I believe have 7-9 different meanings of the word “love” whereas in English there’s pretty much only 1 meaning – or a few. But it’s broad. Anyway, there are different meanings of Love. (I’ve already written about this – I’ll pull it up from one of my word docs sometime later) anyway, lay down. Relax. Breathe. – (you already know – maybe, that I am writing in this moment like I am speaking to someone, to you, whoever you may be. I don’t know, but I’m writing this for the people – for anyone who is listening*****) 

Integration — first, relax. Lay down. Breathe… My integration with psilocybin began 10 years ago – so, it’s been a fucking journey – a great one. Now(I wanted it then too) I want others to experience this. Love. Unconditional Love… idk & it doesn’t matter what ppl think – but One way to experience this is through deeply researching the Bible – like I’ve done throughout most of my life – beginning when I was like 11 or 12. I’ve gotten into other spiritual books as I’ve gotten older – currently I’m super into Hinduism & studying more of that. Buddhism is also amazing. 

There are so many practical applications in these spiritual texts. & they’ve been around for a long long time. There’s a reason they’re still here… anyway, I want to help people integrate love into their lives, because it’s real love that they desire. We all want love. 

As a few tears now stream from my eyes. It’s love. & I think that we need it. We need love. Real love. 

As a few laughs from love come about – from within. Smile. Breathe. 

So where can someone begin? – because psilocybin by itself may help a few experience love, but integration is what we need. Integration can help everybody. It can help anybody who wants to experience love. & everybody does. If a person says they don’t want to experience unconditional love – they are lying to themselves. Everybody wants to experience unconditional love. I think we need this now more than ever – in humanity – & that honestly, real love possibly can heal this world. Because we also all know that this world is a puzzle to say the least. It’s … there’s really no words to explain it — ****because it is Beyond Words!!!**** 

people, myself too, we often & maybe almost always – live in words. In ideas. But LIFE is NOT words!!!!! It’s beyond that. Real life is beyond words. 

Unconditional love is beyond reason**** & humans, me too, we aren’t always reasonable – as much as we all like to believe we are..so this now leads me to thinking about our shadows. The “dark side” of humanity – which is within us all. Don’t try to say it’s not. It’s within us all. & you don’t need to judge it. What we need to do, I think, is learn to understand & accept the dark sides within us all. It’s really okay. It truly is. You’re not alone. There’s someone who understands — & it is you. Many organizations & whatnot have been created in fear – there’s a ton of fear within us all, within humans & animals. & fear itself isn’t a bad thing, it’s not. Fear can be good. But unconditional love is such a better experience. It’s limitless. It’s sooo vast. 

So okay, integration. How to gently transition from fear to love*** this could be a book title ^^^. There’s so much “serious- ness” in this world. & everything is really, truly, not that serious. (I wasn’t trying to reference the joker there either) 

It’s just – like Jesus & other spiritual leaders, Bob Marley, so many leaders – they say don’t worry. Don’t worry about anything. Everything is perfect. It is. But not everyone sees this – maybe most people don’t. I don’t know. We, as humans, from the poorest to richest, from the healthiest to the diseased , all of us are just a part of life. It’s really very simple, but we make it so complex – people make simple things complex. & that’s not needed.maybe it was then, but it’s not needed now. Now is a time for simplicity, like da Vinci spoke of – “simplicity is the ultimate sophistication.” & it is. 

It really is. I think because there is a certain understanding within simplicity – like look at nature for example – trees – they are beautiful, & they are extremely intelligent. They grow & they don’t need humans to help them grow. Nature helps them – which we can also call god, because it’s everywhere. Again, it’s nothing to fear. You’re already here. Might as well experience love. It’s what you want anyway. We need love – humanity needs love. Unconditional love. 

But it’s not something to  force. Love is Never something to force – ever. That’s why a gentle integration of it may be the best path toward it; to it. Because it’s here already. Love is here. & love casts out fear. I don’t know. Now I know I might be writing too much, haha. Again, it really doesn’t matter anyway. I don’t give a fuck. Right now I don’t, & right now I know what I know. 

So integration, where can people begin? (- other than taking a large dose of psilocybin) 

—begin by relaxing. Lay down. Get comfortable.     

—then from here, hmm,,, sometimes I don’t know if anybody cares anyway – if anybody truly cares. This all might just be futile, blowing in the wind. It probably is. But while we’re here… ***But since we’re here*** … to meditate in Love – like when Ram Dass asked Maharaji about how to meditate – Maharaji closed his eyes, I think teared up, opened his eyes & answered, meditate like Christ. & ram Dass asked how Christ meditated,. Maharaji answered, “in love” or something like that. — & this now inspires me to read some of the gospels – especially Jesus’s words in the gospels… I was gonna write this in my notebook, but, fuck it. Anyone who is reading this, anyone who is listening, yea please do…Eternal perspective – & yes, it is out of this world. It is way way beyond anything the human brain can comprehend,, currently… also, I am not claiming to be jesus or anything… I’m just a person who is very interested in these studies. 

I find this all fascinating. 

Life is beyond words beautiful. I feel & experience unconditional love & I want others to experience this too. It’s magical. Truly it is. It’s the peace beyond understanding that jesus spoke of… & I don’t feel this transcendent presence 24/7, as you know, but right now I do.  – this is after ingesting some psilocybin a couple hours ago…

integration is so important. Without integration none of this can happen. We need to gently, very very gently, integrate unconditional love. It’s not impossible – as some think. It’s not. It is possible… I’m gonna eat another little shroom now too. Keep this going. I say with a smile. A big smile. A smile of love… 

do you know what is so fucking important??? 

Clean water. (7:15pm currently) & water is what I’m about to go get from the kitchen. I’m gonna drink it too hahaha. Idk why that’s funny, but it is. Clean water for all tho, that’d be nice. 

Long showers hold some healing within. (7:29 pm – taking a shower) , also many of the words I write can hold within them multiple meanings. This is intentional. – better said – is that most of what I write is straightforward, but some of what I write contains multiple purposes – all good. (7:56pm – out of the shower & dressed) back to my cabin. – dental hygiene is important. Definitely gonna floss & brush my teeth when I get to my cabin shortly… 

so, integration, haha…I say with a smile, a loving smile. It’s all okay. It’s all life. For me – with integration, after relaxing & meditating & all that, I go to the gospels in the Bible, at least right now I do. Jesus’s words are incredible. They are powerful – powerfully healing – to anyone who listens – to anyone who wants healing – to anyone who wants unconditional love. So for now, I’m gonna read more of the gospel John. I’m in the third chapter & already reminded of the brilliance of this all. Inspired by God, or something divine. Most definitely… & unconditional love – for anyone who worries about this – it’s the opposite of worry. It’s nothing to worry about. Worrying won’t get you to Heaven. You are loved for who you are. Just as you are. THIS is unconditional love. Everybody has sinned and has fallen short of God’s glory, says the Bible, & this is true. But God or whatever this experience is, love us completely – just as we are, & completely knows all that we are. There’s no hiding from God, & that should be liberating – not frightening. Knowing that all everyone has ever done – God understands, & God love, without conditions. Unconditional love… now back to the gospel John. — also, I’d like to add some Hinduism into here too, because Christianity seems to scare the fuck out of some people haha. Understandably so – the church has room for improvement. Hinduism holds truths that are also just wow. It’s just that for me, personally, I began with the Bible & not just that I began with it – I like reading it. I also love reading Hindu texts. Buddhist texts. 

Spiritual >>> Religious. (8:27pm) 

8:32 pm – John 4:24… id like to quote so much of this gospel – & all the gospels. But for now I’m gonna continue reading… I feel so fucking good right now. So fucking good. (8:47pm) 

(9:11pm – just got back from the kitchen – ate a piece of pizza & some leftovers, did dishes, organized some stuff in fridge, & now I’m back in the cabin… oh yea, can’t forget – I drink water sometimes straight from the faucet – literally I do, metaphorically it’s like drinking spiritual water straight from the source) 

The Doors of Perception are open within me, throughout me, in this moment. Glory to god. This life is just wow. Beyond that. It’s beyond words… also, with the Bible – it takes a lot of discernment, prayer, & spiritual gifts to understand it’s main messages – because some of the Bible is out of date – it’s difficult to explain this – id have to write in depth about it – which I would love to do. I’m signed with God, but was gonna say something like someone should sign me now before everybody wants me. It’s that I am certain I have great gifts to share. & I want to share it all. It’s all happening in time anyway. & it’s something to smile about. A big big smile. 

Love. 

Unconditional love. (9:27pm) 

John 6:31 “after all, our ancestors ate manna while they journeyed through the wilderness! The Scriptures say ‘Moses gave them bread from heaven to eat.’” 

—& now for integration, John 6:32-33 “Jesus said, ‘I tell you the truth, Moses didn’t give you bread from heaven. My Father did. And now he offers you the true bread from heaven. The true bread of God is the one who comes down from heaven and gives life to the world.’”

The next verse is hilarious, John 6:34 “Sir,” they said, “give us that bread every day.”

Hahaha. That is awesome though ^^. (9:39pm) 

I feel so good right now – as I read the gospel John, & after eating psilocybin in the past few hours. I feel great. 

But yea, integration…haha…it is extremely important… later in John 6 Jesus speaks of people eating his flesh & drinking his blood to get eternal life — yea this is not literal. He speaks in parables all the time. Just about all the time. I believe he is speaking of his words – the words of God. The Holy Spirit. – that people need to take it into their minds & eat it, & digest it, & really take it in. Because when you get it – when you really get it, it doesn’t go away. Quite possibly eternal. Also this is a paradox to human ways – because the way to experience Heaven is the most selfless actions you can make. It is complete selflessness that will get you there… gentle integration… 

John 7:38 “Anyone who believes in me may come & drink! For the Scriptures declare, ‘Rivers of living water will flow from his heart.’” (10:00pm) 

psilocybin is seriously fucking amazing… I think many people tho who are trying to get into the psilocybin field don’t know what they’re getting into — especially people who are only looking for profit… & hopefully – my hope is that, well, I don’t care who comes into this field – & my hope is that the more they get into psilocybin plus integrations, the more they will understand & experience unconditional love. So it’s a win-win either way. It’s all good…as I read the gospel John still – some of these verses remind me of Atman in Hinduism – which refers to Soul – which I believe is the real essence of who we all are.  It goes beyond the physical. It literally transcends physicality. I want to share this message. 

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7 Bad Trip Tips

The title says it all. 
Plus I left in a “blooper” at the beginning of the episode a little after the 1 minute intro (same with episode 14).
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Psilocybin & The Alchemist

You may have heard of the book, The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho, but how is it related to the psilocybin experience? 
To my psilocybin experiences?

I share two important messages from this book, & quotes, all related to epiphanies I experienced on psilocybin.

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What is the meaning of life? Morning Thoughts

I dive into my mind sometimes,

What’s the meaning of life?

^there are levels to the answer of this question

Because in a large way, we are literally creating the meaning of life.

-but yes, on a metaphysical, quantum level, there is a lottttttt happening. Layers. Levels. Dimensions. Etc. & there’s multiple layers within the layers — but this is what we do, right? As humans. We’re explorers. Pioneers. Renegades. & to go deeper, within the human mind – and also externally, we must begin “digging” you could say — diving into the mind – for me, I’m a natural philosopher, & psychedelics like psilocybin & lsd a handful of times(I would like to do more) – they can serve as mind “digging” tools — 

^^and one of the many things I’ve discovered/experienced, is that “Mind” is possibly everywhere. It’s not only within the individual. During some of my psychedelic trips I have understood this completely, wholly. It’s far-out. Definitely. But it’s real. & if I need to, I’m sure I could find quotes from geniuses of the past – scientific & other, who have said the same thing — but now, as we are advancing – in technology, etc, we may be able to prove this to be true.

^this is so obvious to me, that sometimes I feel like humanity already knows this…but, at so many levels it’s also obvious that humanity doesn’t know this — as a species, humanity overall, is still mostly behaving like animals, savages. 

& this ^^ is understandable. Look where we came from – as a species (humanity). “Life”, as we know it – well, the history of humanity, has been savagery. So it’s like yea, of course. 

But then where do we go from here?

& how? 

& why?

& I don’t know if it even matters. 

But I guess maybe it’s also our instinct which makes us want to strive & survive, & learn, & evolve.

(I drink a lot of water. I drink a lot of other things too. But lots and lots of water.)

As humans, we like to think we are in control. & to an extent, we are. But to a very small extent — because there are metaphysical, invisible, quantum, all that shit – is here. And it always has been. Life goes way way way beyond the human experience. Life is not about us. It’s not. Get over it. Boo-hoo. Cry me a river — & then use that water to help people.

Humanity, well, humans, individually, are selfish. Almost completely selfish.

It’s their instinct, mostly. So their instinct, and I’m sure this is not only biological, but there are multiple factors that influence this,, but yea, most, if not all, humans instinct is to survive, and, as we look at the history of humanity, it’s easy to see this. I mean even life today. It’s obvious.

So, there must be some good to this ^^, although it may be hard to believe. But there is. like we need this(ego) to a certain extent. But there is more to life than the human ego. So much more. 

But it’s very easy to be carried away by ego.

Possibly if it weren’t for my psilocybin experiences, I may not have ever experienced life outside the human ego. But there is life beyond the human ego. And it’s beautiful. Seriously. 

But yes, there is possibly a need for balance. Of ego, and we’ll say soul, if we are to adapt & evolve, together. There’s just so much more. But for so long humans have lived inside a bubble in a way. We could call it the bubble of ego. 100%. 

There is more to life than our little ego bubbles. So so so so much more.

Water break.

Goosebumps.

Anyway. Trying to find the right words for this — for what the answer for this could be — & it’s probably many things — one being a new form of understanding,, a new way of thinking,, perceiving,, etc..

& yes, I know at least part of the way, and part of me believes that the only way to achieve this is for us, on individual levels, to live the way. 

^^and the way — well first, it’s not just one exact way – it’s not. There’s no such thing as “perfection” – well, there is, because everything is perfect already,, but in a human sense – things will never be perfect, ever. Let’s not try to make things perfect, lets just progress. Start where we are and go from here. 

^but yea, the way..I could put it simply but it’s funny because I don’t know if people would understand. So possibly it’s something I’d have to write out or something, in detail, being diligent & specific with my words – as I’m trying to do now, but this is just a free-write. My mind is speaking.

How could I plan everything that has happened? Someone couldn’t plan that out. I trust life. It’s a different form of thinking, of living, of being. 

And..I could continue with this – with writing & whatever, but, and I will, at some point. 

And yea, it’d be nice to not be living in poverty. & some might mention ego now – but like I said, we need ego to an extent. & I like to have fun. Life isn’t about just human shit. That’s stupid. About whatever. It’s so much more. And I want to create great work, and have fun while I do it, at a place where I can research & write, and feel free to dive into the Mind, & try to find the right words — to share new ways of thinking, perceiving, understanding.

Somewhere near nature, beach would be cool. No nearby neighbors haha, but I’ll still be social every now & then. 

((People are so stupid sometimes. They will take your words & twist them into their own interpretation, for better or worse, and often, for worse. So fucking stupid.)) – but again, even though this irritates me sometimes, I understand it. We, humanity, come from savagery – this is how it has been, and this is how it still is.

& I don’t mind living in poverty. Honestly I love my life, and that won’t change. It won’t. I know what I’m here for. & if I die or someone kills me, that’s okay. Seriously, whatever. It doesn’t matter. Life goes on. It’s not about me. And it’s not about you. It’s definitely not about humanity.  There’s just a lot, a lot, a lot happening on the metaphysical, quantum level, & other levels we are currently unaware of.

That’s it for now.

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Ego as an Onion + Meditation

How is the human ego similar to an onion? 
Find out throughout this episode 🙂
Plus some meditation toward the end! (and aliens?!?!)