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Psychedelic Ideas

“Ideas should be worth more than anything.”
—Terence McKenna

When was the last time you felt inspired?

Did an idea spark your inspiration? (If it wasn’t a drug)

Ideas – especially when they can be clearly written, spoken, & communicated, are really what creates change in this life. 

Because ideas inspire action.

& ideas spread. 

Good ideas spread.

Ideas are constantly being communicated with you, me, & everyone & all beings everywhere at all times.

Because ideas come in multiple forms.

Words, images, feelings & intuitions, to name a few.

What ideas really are, are signs.

They point toward something.

& when truly good ideas are communicated, they should be worth more than anything.

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Psychedelic Evolution

“Even as the nineteenth century had to come to grips with the notion of human descent from apes, we must now come to terms with the fact that those apes were stoned apes.”
-Terence McKenna

Scientists can’t confirm with 100% accuracy that humans are a product of evolution.

But that is what many of them think, and it’s possible

For me, I am not claiming to know. I entertain multiple ideas, like Aristotle.

It’s possible that aliens created us, that we are a product of aliens. But yea, evolution is possible too. & there are more than just two possibilities. There are many.

Anyway, in relation to the title of this post & Terence’s quote, the evolution of humanity may have come from animals who stumbled upon plants that got them high. Really really high. Like psilocybin mushrooms. 

And if we didn’t come from animals, although we as humans are animals – we share a very similar biology to all animals – organs, hair, skin, hands, feet, etc. humans are animals. Get over it.

Anyway, even if we didn’t evolve from apes, we are now at a point where we can observe evolution happening within us, humanity, as we live right now — & that this evolution, at least part of it, is coming from the use of psilocybin mushrooms & marijuana. Other psychedelics too.

What are your thoughts on the stoned ape theory?

& what are your thoughts about aliens?

Comment, and stay cool, friends

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Psychedelic Inspiration & Dreams

“I connect the psychedelic dimension to the dimension of inspiration and dream.”
-Terence McKenna

When was the last time you felt inspired?

Like truly inspired…

Think about it.

Take a second…

Or take a few.

And if it’s been awhile, so long that you can’t remember, then maybe it’s time to try psychedelics (in a safe & legal setting)

My psilocybin mushroom experiences always inspire me in the deepest of ways – & I only macro dose 2 or 3 times a year – that’s where some real inspiration can be sparked – with a macro dose of psilocybin.

Micro dosing is okay, you’ll feel some light effects, but macro dosing can take you places you never thought existed. 

Macro dosing can get you to dream again…& not just any dreams, but dreams for the collective consciousness, for the whole.

& it’s beautiful.

Share this message as inspiration with a friend in need🙏🍄✨

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Inward Reflections

“We have been to the moon, we have charted the depths of the ocean and the heart of the atom, but we have a fear of looking inward to ourselves because we sense that is where all the contradictions flow together”
-Terence McKenna 

One of the main revelations I first experienced on a psilocybin trip is the relation & connection between our inner selves & the external world — that in reality, they are one & the same. There is no separation, but our egos say “yes there’s a big difference.”

^this experience can’t be explained. The only way for someone to understand this is to experience it themselves.

& this experience includes the entire universe — the cosmos, all galaxies, the oceans, the people, animals, trees, nature, all of it.

It reminds me of this Rumi quote:

You are not a drop in the ocean; you are the entire ocean in a drop.”

& I am convinced that this experience is the peace beyond understanding. Convinced. 

Total bliss. Unconditional love. & it can be thought up – it can only be experienced.

Back to the first quote — people can continue looking for answers outside of themselves, or they can choose to finally look inward.

Psychedelics, specifically psilocybin shrooms, can guide people inside themselves…haha…it sounds funny but it’s the most real thing you can experience.

I’m excited to hear about your trip inward.

Here we go✌️😎🍄✨👽❤️

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Be The Hero of Your Novel

“If you’re not the hero of your own novel, then what kind of novel is it? You need to do some heavy editing.”
-Terence McKenna

It’s easy to look outside of ourselves for answers – for someone else to save us. Like Jesus or Buddha, or the government….

haha…

What psychedelics can do, & what they have done for me is they have shown me that my life is my responsibility & that the answers are within.

If we wait on Jesus or whoever to save us, well, it just won’t happen. We need to save ourselves first, put on our life jackets, & then help others put their life jackets on.

Jesus & other spiritual leaders can guide us, truly, their messages & spirits can help us, especially when combined with psilocybin mushrooms. 

But what they really do is they teach us how to live empowered lives.

They show us how to be the hero of our own story, as we are all called to be.

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Having New Eyes

“The real voyage of discovery consists not in seeking new landscapes, but in having new eyes.”
-Marcel Proust

What does it mean to “have new eyes”?

Well, it could mean many things – one of them being to alter ones consciousness via psychedelics or marijuana.

Alcohol alters consciousness too, but we all know that very little to no good comes from alcohol. We shouldn’t make alcohol illegal though. If people want to drink alcohol they should be able to, & I love drinking sometimes. Pro choice is my choice.

(I accept the effects, haha..)

Psychedelics on the other hand are extremely beneficial. They can literally, at least temporarily, give people new eyes. Yes, like Jesus giving sight to the blind – this is definitely similar.

In this case & possibly in Jesus’s time too, the “blind” are people that might be able to see – but their vision is skewed – they don’t see things clearly – they only see things how they think they are – from their personal, biased perspective.

What psilocybin mushrooms can do, especially with an experienced & trustworthy guide, is temporarily open peoples’ eyes to true reality – beyond human ideas. Real reality. Which can never be defined in words. It is beyond words. It’s an experience.

& it is fucking gorgeous.

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Ego & Soul Consciousness

“Life lived in the absence of the psychedelic experience that primordial shamanism is based on is life trivialized, life denied, life enslaved to the ego.”
-Terence McKenna

We all know the ego can be a bitch, but it’s not all bad.

It’s really about balance – the middle way, like Buddha spoke of, but in today’s world we are living in an ego-driven, soul-deprived, mad fucking world.

& the madness is mostly caused by the ego, which is solely concerned with its individual self – & less or not at all concerned with the collective self – which is who we truly are.

It’s no ones fault.

The state humanity is currently in is just a result of the blind ego flow it has been in for centuries.

The ego has crucified & murdered soul leaders ever since the ego took charge. Jesus. MLK jr. John Lennon. Tupac…

In the past 100 years we have seen more Soul leaders than in the past 2,000 years.

This is because humanity is waking up.

We are realizing the price of ego, & are in desperate need of Soul.

& guess what?

Soul is rising.

One way to raise the Soul consciousness in humanity is to legalize psychedelics, specifically psilocybin mushrooms.

What we don’t need is people faking Soul – that will just lead to more bullshit.

What we need is Real Fucking Soul.

This will obviously take time – as humanity is conflicted with a vast number of issues, but I believe it will happen.

Legalize psilocybin mushrooms.

Legalize psychedelics.

And when someone takes too much of a psychedelic, guess what, they won’t die. Although they might experience an ego death – which is where Soul is born.

And the more we all open up about our true psychedelic experiences, the more humanity will heal, along with the world.

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Notes During Last Night’s Psilocybin Trip

(Began around 5 something PM – probably more towards 6)

It’s moments like this, here & now, where I see everything — well, I want to say “everything”, but it’s more like 

( I take a deep breath) it’s an understanding. & to anyone who doesn’t believe, that’s okay. 

It’s real tho. 

This is real. 

I am real. 

There’s nothing fake about this. I feel like I shouldn’t have to tell people this – that they should know it’s real – that they can feel it. But maybe not everyone can, yet… all I have right now is a big smile…a big smile for myself & for everyone, for life, for nature, for people, for everything. Wow, & sometimes I cry because it’s so vast… okay, so yes – integration is extremely important,, where can people begin?

—begin by Relaxing (there are multiple ways to relax — meditation, **laying down is actually wonderful** just lay down. & breathe. 

& love— like the Greeks I believe have 7-9 different meanings of the word “love” whereas in English there’s pretty much only 1 meaning – or a few. But it’s broad. Anyway, there are different meanings of Love. (I’ve already written about this – I’ll pull it up from one of my word docs sometime later) anyway, lay down. Relax. Breathe. – (you already know – maybe, that I am writing in this moment like I am speaking to someone, to you, whoever you may be. I don’t know, but I’m writing this for the people – for anyone who is listening*****) 

Integration — first, relax. Lay down. Breathe… My integration with psilocybin began 10 years ago – so, it’s been a fucking journey – a great one. Now(I wanted it then too) I want others to experience this. Love. Unconditional Love… idk & it doesn’t matter what ppl think – but One way to experience this is through deeply researching the Bible – like I’ve done throughout most of my life – beginning when I was like 11 or 12. I’ve gotten into other spiritual books as I’ve gotten older – currently I’m super into Hinduism & studying more of that. Buddhism is also amazing. 

There are so many practical applications in these spiritual texts. & they’ve been around for a long long time. There’s a reason they’re still here… anyway, I want to help people integrate love into their lives, because it’s real love that they desire. We all want love. 

As a few tears now stream from my eyes. It’s love. & I think that we need it. We need love. Real love. 

As a few laughs from love come about – from within. Smile. Breathe. 

So where can someone begin? – because psilocybin by itself may help a few experience love, but integration is what we need. Integration can help everybody. It can help anybody who wants to experience love. & everybody does. If a person says they don’t want to experience unconditional love – they are lying to themselves. Everybody wants to experience unconditional love. I think we need this now more than ever – in humanity – & that honestly, real love possibly can heal this world. Because we also all know that this world is a puzzle to say the least. It’s … there’s really no words to explain it — ****because it is Beyond Words!!!**** 

people, myself too, we often & maybe almost always – live in words. In ideas. But LIFE is NOT words!!!!! It’s beyond that. Real life is beyond words. 

Unconditional love is beyond reason**** & humans, me too, we aren’t always reasonable – as much as we all like to believe we are..so this now leads me to thinking about our shadows. The “dark side” of humanity – which is within us all. Don’t try to say it’s not. It’s within us all. & you don’t need to judge it. What we need to do, I think, is learn to understand & accept the dark sides within us all. It’s really okay. It truly is. You’re not alone. There’s someone who understands — & it is you. Many organizations & whatnot have been created in fear – there’s a ton of fear within us all, within humans & animals. & fear itself isn’t a bad thing, it’s not. Fear can be good. But unconditional love is such a better experience. It’s limitless. It’s sooo vast. 

So okay, integration. How to gently transition from fear to love*** this could be a book title ^^^. There’s so much “serious- ness” in this world. & everything is really, truly, not that serious. (I wasn’t trying to reference the joker there either) 

It’s just – like Jesus & other spiritual leaders, Bob Marley, so many leaders – they say don’t worry. Don’t worry about anything. Everything is perfect. It is. But not everyone sees this – maybe most people don’t. I don’t know. We, as humans, from the poorest to richest, from the healthiest to the diseased , all of us are just a part of life. It’s really very simple, but we make it so complex – people make simple things complex. & that’s not needed.maybe it was then, but it’s not needed now. Now is a time for simplicity, like da Vinci spoke of – “simplicity is the ultimate sophistication.” & it is. 

It really is. I think because there is a certain understanding within simplicity – like look at nature for example – trees – they are beautiful, & they are extremely intelligent. They grow & they don’t need humans to help them grow. Nature helps them – which we can also call god, because it’s everywhere. Again, it’s nothing to fear. You’re already here. Might as well experience love. It’s what you want anyway. We need love – humanity needs love. Unconditional love. 

But it’s not something to  force. Love is Never something to force – ever. That’s why a gentle integration of it may be the best path toward it; to it. Because it’s here already. Love is here. & love casts out fear. I don’t know. Now I know I might be writing too much, haha. Again, it really doesn’t matter anyway. I don’t give a fuck. Right now I don’t, & right now I know what I know. 

So integration, where can people begin? (- other than taking a large dose of psilocybin) 

—begin by relaxing. Lay down. Get comfortable.     

—then from here, hmm,,, sometimes I don’t know if anybody cares anyway – if anybody truly cares. This all might just be futile, blowing in the wind. It probably is. But while we’re here… ***But since we’re here*** … to meditate in Love – like when Ram Dass asked Maharaji about how to meditate – Maharaji closed his eyes, I think teared up, opened his eyes & answered, meditate like Christ. & ram Dass asked how Christ meditated,. Maharaji answered, “in love” or something like that. — & this now inspires me to read some of the gospels – especially Jesus’s words in the gospels… I was gonna write this in my notebook, but, fuck it. Anyone who is reading this, anyone who is listening, yea please do…Eternal perspective – & yes, it is out of this world. It is way way beyond anything the human brain can comprehend,, currently… also, I am not claiming to be jesus or anything… I’m just a person who is very interested in these studies. 

I find this all fascinating. 

Life is beyond words beautiful. I feel & experience unconditional love & I want others to experience this too. It’s magical. Truly it is. It’s the peace beyond understanding that jesus spoke of… & I don’t feel this transcendent presence 24/7, as you know, but right now I do.  – this is after ingesting some psilocybin a couple hours ago…

integration is so important. Without integration none of this can happen. We need to gently, very very gently, integrate unconditional love. It’s not impossible – as some think. It’s not. It is possible… I’m gonna eat another little shroom now too. Keep this going. I say with a smile. A big smile. A smile of love… 

do you know what is so fucking important??? 

Clean water. (7:15pm currently) & water is what I’m about to go get from the kitchen. I’m gonna drink it too hahaha. Idk why that’s funny, but it is. Clean water for all tho, that’d be nice. 

Long showers hold some healing within. (7:29 pm – taking a shower) , also many of the words I write can hold within them multiple meanings. This is intentional. – better said – is that most of what I write is straightforward, but some of what I write contains multiple purposes – all good. (7:56pm – out of the shower & dressed) back to my cabin. – dental hygiene is important. Definitely gonna floss & brush my teeth when I get to my cabin shortly… 

so, integration, haha…I say with a smile, a loving smile. It’s all okay. It’s all life. For me – with integration, after relaxing & meditating & all that, I go to the gospels in the Bible, at least right now I do. Jesus’s words are incredible. They are powerful – powerfully healing – to anyone who listens – to anyone who wants healing – to anyone who wants unconditional love. So for now, I’m gonna read more of the gospel John. I’m in the third chapter & already reminded of the brilliance of this all. Inspired by God, or something divine. Most definitely… & unconditional love – for anyone who worries about this – it’s the opposite of worry. It’s nothing to worry about. Worrying won’t get you to Heaven. You are loved for who you are. Just as you are. THIS is unconditional love. Everybody has sinned and has fallen short of God’s glory, says the Bible, & this is true. But God or whatever this experience is, love us completely – just as we are, & completely knows all that we are. There’s no hiding from God, & that should be liberating – not frightening. Knowing that all everyone has ever done – God understands, & God love, without conditions. Unconditional love… now back to the gospel John. — also, I’d like to add some Hinduism into here too, because Christianity seems to scare the fuck out of some people haha. Understandably so – the church has room for improvement. Hinduism holds truths that are also just wow. It’s just that for me, personally, I began with the Bible & not just that I began with it – I like reading it. I also love reading Hindu texts. Buddhist texts. 

Spiritual >>> Religious. (8:27pm) 

8:32 pm – John 4:24… id like to quote so much of this gospel – & all the gospels. But for now I’m gonna continue reading… I feel so fucking good right now. So fucking good. (8:47pm) 

(9:11pm – just got back from the kitchen – ate a piece of pizza & some leftovers, did dishes, organized some stuff in fridge, & now I’m back in the cabin… oh yea, can’t forget – I drink water sometimes straight from the faucet – literally I do, metaphorically it’s like drinking spiritual water straight from the source) 

The Doors of Perception are open within me, throughout me, in this moment. Glory to god. This life is just wow. Beyond that. It’s beyond words… also, with the Bible – it takes a lot of discernment, prayer, & spiritual gifts to understand it’s main messages – because some of the Bible is out of date – it’s difficult to explain this – id have to write in depth about it – which I would love to do. I’m signed with God, but was gonna say something like someone should sign me now before everybody wants me. It’s that I am certain I have great gifts to share. & I want to share it all. It’s all happening in time anyway. & it’s something to smile about. A big big smile. 

Love. 

Unconditional love. (9:27pm) 

John 6:31 “after all, our ancestors ate manna while they journeyed through the wilderness! The Scriptures say ‘Moses gave them bread from heaven to eat.’” 

—& now for integration, John 6:32-33 “Jesus said, ‘I tell you the truth, Moses didn’t give you bread from heaven. My Father did. And now he offers you the true bread from heaven. The true bread of God is the one who comes down from heaven and gives life to the world.’”

The next verse is hilarious, John 6:34 “Sir,” they said, “give us that bread every day.”

Hahaha. That is awesome though ^^. (9:39pm) 

I feel so good right now – as I read the gospel John, & after eating psilocybin in the past few hours. I feel great. 

But yea, integration…haha…it is extremely important… later in John 6 Jesus speaks of people eating his flesh & drinking his blood to get eternal life — yea this is not literal. He speaks in parables all the time. Just about all the time. I believe he is speaking of his words – the words of God. The Holy Spirit. – that people need to take it into their minds & eat it, & digest it, & really take it in. Because when you get it – when you really get it, it doesn’t go away. Quite possibly eternal. Also this is a paradox to human ways – because the way to experience Heaven is the most selfless actions you can make. It is complete selflessness that will get you there… gentle integration… 

John 7:38 “Anyone who believes in me may come & drink! For the Scriptures declare, ‘Rivers of living water will flow from his heart.’” (10:00pm) 

psilocybin is seriously fucking amazing… I think many people tho who are trying to get into the psilocybin field don’t know what they’re getting into — especially people who are only looking for profit… & hopefully – my hope is that, well, I don’t care who comes into this field – & my hope is that the more they get into psilocybin plus integrations, the more they will understand & experience unconditional love. So it’s a win-win either way. It’s all good…as I read the gospel John still – some of these verses remind me of Atman in Hinduism – which refers to Soul – which I believe is the real essence of who we all are.  It goes beyond the physical. It literally transcends physicality. I want to share this message. 

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Ram Dass’s First Psilocybin Trip

“Psychedelics helped me to escape..albeit momentarily..from the prison of my mind. It over-rode the habit patterns of thought and I was able to taste innocence again. Looking at sensations freshly without the conceptual overly was very profound.”
—Ram Dass

Ram Dass, whose birth name was Richard Alpert, was Born April 6, 1931 in Boston, MA.

Here’s a short background leading up to his psilocybin story…

Ram Dass grew up in a middle to high class family and lived life “just like everyone else” — Pursuing all the things that society deemed would make him successful.

He became a Harvard psychology professor, had a nice house, a plane, nice car, and a bunch of “stuff” – lots of material items that made it appear to others he was successful, but it was during his first psilocybin experience that he realized his happiness was actually a facade. 

Let’s talk about Harvard for a moment.

So yea Ram Dass was a professor and in his early years of teaching he became intrigued with this man down the hall named Timothy Leary — Ram Dass said he actually feared Leary a bit – that Leary was the only professor Ram Dass feared because Leary didn’t conform or concern himself with Harvard’s “serious ego-ness.” — with identifying himself superior to others because he is a Harvard professor!

They ended up becoming friends and in the early 60’s Ram Dass flew out to Mexico to meet Leary.  When Ram Dass arrived Leary told Ram that he just learned more in the past 5 hours from taking psilocybin mushrooms than he had previously learned in the prior 15 years of teaching psychology.

There weren’t any more psilocybin mushrooms at the time but Ram Dass was intrigued. On March 6th, 1961 during that year’s biggest snowstorm Ram Dass ingested psilocybin mushrooms with Leary & others at Tim’s house. (which was two blocks away from Ram Dass’s parent’s house)

Some of Ram Dass’s first experience when the psilocybin took effect was panic. He worried that Leary’s dog who had just come in from running around in the snow, was going to die because it was panting heavily. Leary’s son came downstairs and assured them it was ok.

Then as he sat alone in the living room he experienced an internal panic in a way — It was like a peeling away of layers of who he identified himself to be. He saw himself from an ego-less perspective and saw everything he was currently living for but the psilocybin has the effect of peeling all those things away and leaving a person with “nothing” — with just awareness.

Except before Ram Dass got to experiencing that awareness he was worried as all these layers were peeling away.

He wrote: “And what’s clearly going to happen now is that I’m going to be an amnesia case because I’m losing my identity. I wont know who I am.”

His panic increased and said that he wanted to scream, but he didn’t. 

Psilocybin’s effects continued and Ram Dass reached this point..

He said: 

“And I became aware at that moment that although everything by which I knew myself was gone, still there was something in me that was watching this whole process disappear.”

“And I remember jumping up and I ran out into the snow and danced in the snow. And then later I recall going back through the drifts to my parents home around five in the morning and deciding as a young tribal buck that I would shovel the snow in the front and I was shoveling and my parents came to the window and opened the window and said “You damned idiot come in, you don’t shovel snow in the middle of the night.” 

“And I looked up and I heard this voice which was the kind of voice of external sanction to which I had always responded since that’s how I got to be where I was, and I listened to the voice inside and the voice inside said it’s cool if you want to shovel snow, its all right, there’s nothing immoral about that. And I looked up at them and I smiled and I danced a bit of a jig and I went back to shoveling.”

And the window closed and I saw them smiling behind it.”

He goes on saying: “Well now I was presented with a peculiar dilemma, because the next Monday when I had to get up and give my lectures in human motivation – the theory of ego psychology which I was expected to present as a responsible member of the psychological community, I saw, was not adequate to the experience I had had. Because that place that I had gone to, I couldn’t find it in the book. I couldn’t find it in the book anywhere.”

“… And I couldn’t find the words to tell anybody about what had happened and I hid behind what we all got to use quite frequently of ‘This was an ineffable experience. I’d like to tell you about it but it’s ineffable. Sorry.”

Here are some of my favorite Ram Dass quotes:

“You may have expected that enlightenment would come Zap! instantaneous and permanent. This is unlikely. After the first ‘ah ha’ experience, it can be thought of as the thinning of a layer of clouds.”

“We had gotten over the feeling that one experience was going to make you enlightened forever. We saw that it wasn’t going to be that simple.” 

“If you think you’re enlightened go spend a week with your family.”

“In most of our human relationships, we spend much of our time reassuring one another that our costumes of identity are on straight.” 

“A fellow satsang member asked Maharajji how to meditate, he said, “Meditate like Christ.” I said, “Maharajji, how did Christ meditate?”
He(Maharaji) became very quiet and closed his eyes.
After a few minutes, he had a blissful expression on his face and a tear trickled down his cheek. He opened his eyes and said, “He(Jesus) lost himself in love.”

“There’s nowhere to go, there’s nothing to accomplish, there’s no merit. It’s just this, just this.”

“We’re here to awaken from the illusion of separateness.”

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Wear Sunscreen, A Beautiful Essay

“Wear Sunscreen” is an essay turned into a commencement speech & is one of my favorites – My psilocybin experiences have helped me understand these words all the more.