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Psychedelic Notes 11/18/21

Really what I want to do is – well one thing I want to do is integrate my mystical psilocybin experiences – to put them in words – & to act on what I learned from those experiences – even when & if people disagree. I can’t live for the opinion of people any more. I mean I can but I don’t want to. I can’t live well like that. 

I need to live my truth. 

& what I have experienced during multiple of my psilocybin experiences were completely unique.

I think it will be better if I stop feeling the need to explain myself – especially to people who are bent on disagreeing with me.

 & that I need to just live it – which I’ve done at times in my life, but I’d like to live what I’ve learned more & more – & one of the main things I experienced during those moments was unconditional love – & that no matter who you are & what you’ve done, you are loved no matter what – who you really are, behind your ego, there is unconditional love. I know people disagree with this, but this is what I experienced & it’s true for me.

& I experienced the Tao – beyond words bliss. 

& some of my favorite experiences deep into shroom trips have been stargazing with friends – they were tripping too. 3.5 grams on trips like this when I was in college & the years after college.

Stargazing though, truly beautiful at the end of a mushroom trip – or in the middle of one too. Shooting stars – this is one of the most magical experiences with or without shrooms. But on shrooms it’s magnified X a lot.

& just thinking about life – contemplating it all – not in a rush to figure anything out, but in a way that genuinely wonders & asks All the questions.

What is life?

Why is life? 

Why does anything exist at all?

Why has it happened like this?

Where are we in the Universe? — or better yet realizing that it doesn’t matter where we are in the Universe, just that we are here now – on this big fucking rock! 

With a hot lava core & all sorts of layers within.

Floating in space!!

That’s fucking crazy.

But people act like it’s no big deal.

It’s a huge fucking deal.

Contemplating the vastness of the Universe while laying down at night looking at the stars with friends.

Seeing the edge of our Milky Way Galaxy & thinking about how there are millions & billions of other galaxies!!!! (the normal human mind can’t comprehend billions of galaxies because it’s so vast & because most people are completely stuck in this planet & don’t care to contemplate the Universe – & that’s okay too, but it’s not for me. I like the out of this world philosophy talk & experiences. & there’s always more to learn & experience. Always. No one person can know it all – ever. I will never claim to know it all because that’s not possible for anyone. 

I will claim my experiences though. 

& some people doubt that aliens exist.

That’s a joke.

Of course they do.

I like philosophizing life. 

It’s one of my favorite things to do.

& I’ve been philosophizing & contemplating life since I was a child. 

It’s been a natural passion & I’m thankful for it.

I want others to experience the mystical too. 

^especially since another realization I had on shrooms was that we are literally One. Our egos make us feel separate so our egos must be a lie. But there also must be something good that can come from our egos since they are very much existent in people. The realization that I am you and you are me. In the literal sense. This is no metaphor or anything like that. This is literal. We are each other. It’s just that our egos have been so cemented to believe otherwise – to believe that we are words & images & whatever else the ego holds on to – that all these things define us, but none of them do – they don’t define our real selves, which is our soul selves beyond the ego. I experienced empathy in this place like nothing I’ve ever experienced before & it was complete bliss. Unconditional love. It was the realization of my Soul self. It was an ego death. & it was beyond words beautiful.

Deep empathy. 

& so when I think about or write about politics – I know that’s my ego talking. Politics is the biggest ego game on this planet, & I just don’t have time for that – it takes away from my happiness so the only thing I can do is leave it to them & trust them – I mean, they are in their positions for a reason. 

But after I experienced unconditional love on my shrooms trips I realized that I can’t hate anyone & that I should never try to change anyone. Because we are all in harmony with the Tao, even when we think we or others aren’t – we still are.

So less talk. More living this. 

Just love. 

Really.

& love is an action – & it can be practiced. 

& it’s something I know I would like to practice more. Because in that place of love is bliss. & it’s completely selfless. So much easier said than done because as humans we have been taught to be inherently selfish — so I think we can possibly change human nature — that “human nature” is possibly a concept we’ve created as a species & it can be changed for the better. 

& yes, I’d like to live well – & idk if that’s my ego or soul talking. idk, but it’s like I still want to be financially free & all that. I still want to eat good foods & enjoy life to the fullest, & that’s okay too. There’s nothing wrong with that at all. 

But I also think that real happiness is beyond all of that – that there are some people who are rich & love it & themselves, but that also there are people who are rich and hate their lives — tell that to a poor person..no don’t do that actually. — the pain anyone in is valid. But yea. More living it. Less talk.

^^other peoples’ lives are not mine to judge — no matter what. Period. 

Really, just love.

Really, just love.

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Psychedelic Optimism

“It’s very hard for people sometimes to figure out whether I’m an optimist or not. Let’s get something straight here. I am the most optimistic person you have ever met. I’m absolutely convinced that there is nothing wrong, and that nothing can go wrong, and that nothing will go wrong, and that if something needs to be done you will find yourself doing it.”
-Terence McKenna

It may be hard to believe that everything that happens in life is perfect, because reality often doesn’t match our expectations, but I agree with Terence that nothing is wrong. 

I not only agree with Terence but have experienced this realization multiple times – my first time being during my first psilocybin trip. 

It’s an experience that transcends human suffering (temporarily) showing you (it showed me – it was a feeling – a whole body feeling, that everything is perfect. It wasn’t words – it wasn’t a thought, it was a whole body knowing, a connection. I was connected with something completely, and it was complete bliss. Total understanding. Total joy.) 

yea, it can show you that, but it doesn’t happen for everyone.

It’s an alien-type experience – at least in comparison to today’s standards of living.

& although it’s alien to many, it’s real, & it’s a beautiful experience — Feeling that everything is perfect.

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Having New Eyes

“The real voyage of discovery consists not in seeking new landscapes, but in having new eyes.”
-Marcel Proust

What does it mean to “have new eyes”?

Well, it could mean many things – one of them being to alter ones consciousness via psychedelics or marijuana.

Alcohol alters consciousness too, but we all know that very little to no good comes from alcohol. We shouldn’t make alcohol illegal though. If people want to drink alcohol they should be able to, & I love drinking sometimes. Pro choice is my choice.

(I accept the effects, haha..)

Psychedelics on the other hand are extremely beneficial. They can literally, at least temporarily, give people new eyes. Yes, like Jesus giving sight to the blind – this is definitely similar.

In this case & possibly in Jesus’s time too, the “blind” are people that might be able to see – but their vision is skewed – they don’t see things clearly – they only see things how they think they are – from their personal, biased perspective.

What psilocybin mushrooms can do, especially with an experienced & trustworthy guide, is temporarily open peoples’ eyes to true reality – beyond human ideas. Real reality. Which can never be defined in words. It is beyond words. It’s an experience.

& it is fucking gorgeous.

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Alfredo’s Psychedelic Reflection

Below is Alfredo Avalos III’s reflection on his psychedelic experience.
All good, but I bolded some of my favorite sentences!
Enjoy.

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You know a trip is just like any other physical trip you take.

Whether it’s the beach, a cruise, or shrooming in your backyard with a few friends. The trip will always be what lies within your own mind & soul. Whatever that may contain. Whether good or bad remains lingering, be certain of all contents in your carry-on. Cause any baggage you must bring, will be what is worn and on display during your stay. If you bring a nervousness or a worrisome mind, buckle up and wish you had left them all behind. 

You can deny yourself of the hurt in your mind, but when you’re shrooming, you will start to respect why you and all emotions need to coexist in smiles & cries. We neglect them as we hide, but they’ve been the essence from inside that leads our compass to determine which thoughts are to be left behind in life and which are to hold tight as we carry on for lighter life. 

These thoughts & feelings are the driving force that fuels the entire course of the trip, so if you’ve forgotten your respects at home, you’re in for a bumpy ride. 

Don’t deny the driver of its sight, especially when it’s also the decider of what is right in your mind. It will see you for all that you are. For whatever is lacking, will more than likely, be confronted in your journey. 

Even A bad trip has its good moments. At the very least, you get a humbling story that reminds you to laugh at yourself when you’ve made mistakes. 

Your friends will be sure to remind & enforce it whenever possible. 

Decide for yourself as to why You needed to go on both rides a second time. That ride that you never thought was for you, was actually what was missing, & all that you needed most. 

There’s beauty in those trips, and never was I the same person that had first approached-stumbling, without sight, thinking he knew how to make the best of his life..Maybe you’ll get it someday.

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I enjoyed Alfredo’s reflection & hope you did too!

Check out Alfredo’s Instagram here & Stay Shroomin’ friends.